Today's 20

Today's 20 miler I believe has put me in a funk . I woke up this morning with my three girls and had to spend alittle time with them before I dropped them off at grandma's before my long run . Everyday it's been the same routine . Wake up to get girls ready for school , go back to bed , wake back up with Callie, get her ready for grandma's , go run , get ready for work . Same routine over and over and over . My heart wasn't in for a long run today. I wanted to do 22 but was running short on time so had to cut it to 20 . My legs wasn't feeling it plus my heart wasn't also. I just didn't wanna be out there . I got to many things piling up to do at home . I need to start on my 77 ford , finish my workout room , stuff around the yard and mainly of all spend a little more time with my girls . Running has seem to become more like a job instead of a hobby . Once that thought starts settling in then its no longer enjoyable . I think what I need to do is get this marathon out of the way and take some time off . Not sure how long but enough to start to realize how much it's important to me . I have a big year ahead of me next year and want to make sure my head is in the correct place before I start that journey . Don't get me wrong I love running and racing put my life doesn't need to revolve around my running . It should be the other way around .